The storm clouds are receding. It’s been a very confusing couple of weeks. Finding yourself in unfamiliar territory, feeling as though your power has been taken, the tables turned, not trusting yourself anymore to make the right decisions, you begin to go a little crazy. If you are an over-thinker, its even worse.
I had been giving myself headaches from thinking too much. I felt as though I was loosing touch with reality. What I was thinking and feeling is not rational or logical and some might even argue its unhealthy. Its almost impossible to explain a feeling that is bigger than you are. I began to think it might be faith and this was comforting to me, but when I tried to explain it to others I sounded delusional and desperate and like I was making excuses for someone else’s bad behavior. So then I thought ‘something must be wrong with me!’ Hence the feeling crazy part.
Now, everything makes sense because nothing at all makes sense and that’s ok. To hell with trying to explain to other people whats going on in my head and my heart. I have to trust my gut, my intuition. I have to be honest with myself, and I have to accept it all; the negative feelings of fear, the pain of heartache, and the faith that everything is as it should be.
The mind is a powerful tool for healing. Changing your perspective on a situation can give you new insights and a better understanding, not only of others, but of yourself as well. This is where you begin to grow and heal, and how you propel yourself forward, out of the darkness and towards something new. The unknown is terrifying, but it can also be exhilarating once you realize that you have the power to shape your life and make it what you want it to be.
Other pieces that inspired my thinking:
Pursuit of my Truth 
This resonates with me in so many levels! I overthink, just like you do, and get very emotional about it. Most times, I need to confide all these feelings and thoughts to someone but it’s a very hard thing to do: it never comes out right.
However, we don’t need validation from others. They won’t ever know what’s going on inside of us. And we don’t need to please them. It’s our life, it’s our emotions. We have the right to live in our own terms.
Be magic!
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Yes! Im finding that the learning to love yourself portion of the journey takes care of this need for validation from others. Im not sure if thats how I came across in my writing, but regardless Im more concerned with what im thinking and feeling, and Ive learned that I cant control what other people think or how they act or the decisions they make, I only control me and so I am primarily responsible to me 🙂
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Exactly! 😀
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